Organised Chaos

As I sit here with my morning coffee, the rest of the house is still sleeping. My mind drifts off to a place of serenity.
A place where there are no uniforms to wash and iron. No huge shopping lists to get and no housework to complete.

Being a working Mum, it seems as though it's a never ending task to keep on top of my ever expanding list of jobs to do.
I often sit and think what my actual job description is....
I'm a cook, waitress, cleaner, teacher, nurse, referee, taxi driver, counsellor, events planner and cash machine. I work 24/7 with no sick days or holidays and the job is for the rest of my life!!

I'm not complaining, it's the best job in the world, however it is so consuming. In the midst of it all, you lose yourself, your identity. I'm just Mia & Lilia's mum.
Yet I look at my reflection and I know I could be so much more. I used to be so much more.

2013 will be the year of change for me. It may be the year I finally get back in the driving seat of my life. For the past few years it has felt as if I've just sat back and been a passenger, I jumped on and never really had a destination in mind. Hopefully that will all change.

Firstly, I'm going to get my house in order. I truly believe an organised home equals an organised mind. This will involve some strict rules, new routines and the most difficult bit, TIME.

But, I'm always up for a challenge. Hopefully by the end of the week things will start to happen.

I am owed some time at work that I need to take before Christmas, so I'm taking some half days next week. With the help of a good friend, I'm going to start with my spare room. The dumping room which it as become, will be de-cluttered, spring cleaned and prepared for guests over the festive period.

Each day I promise to organise a room, except the girls room,  I sorted theirs two weeks ago and it's made such a difference. Then hopefully Friday night I can celebrate with a glass or two of wine!

Wish me Luck xxx

Mistakes, I've made a few!

Do you every sit back and think "if I could go back and do it all again, would I do things differently?"

My answer to that would be NO. Not because I have the perfect life or the life I really want, but because all the mistakes, bends in the road have led me here.

I've become the person I am through living life and making a few mistakes along the way!

There is still so much I want to do with my life and plenty more mistakes to make. My only hope is that I'll enjoy the journey more. Yes the destination is important, but I want to know how I got there.

The friendships I've made over the years have been in abundance, yet when troubles are hard, as they often are, I turn to a select few.

Each friend, each unique quality I cherish and hopefully I can return the favour if they ever need me.

Today I realised I'd made a true friend without even realising. On paper there is a huge age gap and our lifestyles have very little in common. Yet some how in the chaos, which we call work, we bonded. Hopefully a friendship that is timeless and will last.

I am fully aware that sometimes people are only in your life for a specific purpose and time. Maybe it's to encourage you to start a new job, to support you through a difficult time or just to simply to changing your whole outlook on life completely.

They say everything happens for a reason, but only time will tell!

They want to silence us?

I'm fairly new to twitter, but ive found it to be an excellent tool to network with like minded people.

Being a Police Officer's wife, its definitely an alternative lifestyle to friends who are not job. They dont seem to understand that it is a way of life and not just a job.
Unfortunately, at the moment the lives of some of my twitter friends are being silenced because of their views.

We all know there are things that every business/organisation does not want its customers to know, but i think if the general publi knew the limited resources our officers have to deal with every shift, they'd be shocked.

James Patrick a serving MET officer as beeing blogging and tweeting for a while. He is now currently under investigation and has been told he is not aloud to use SM????? What happend to freedom of speech? He has told no lies as far as i am aware.

I get so frustrated over the job and i dont not even work there. Our officers do a fantastic job!!!

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/crime/officer-faces-inquiry-over-book-expos-8387074.html

Bad day

What a day....!!!

Yesterday was one of those days when I should have stayed in bed. If it could go wrong, it did.
I woke up thinking the day in the office was going to be a relaxed one, boss was away on business, I had my list of jobs, no hassle. How wrong I was!
But I got through all the hassle, kept on smiling and made it home. Although it did make me think again. I need a job that offers me job satisfaction. The day in the officer reaffirmed I'm just there to make other people's lives easier without any gratitude!
Some of my colleagues wouldn't know what team work was if it smacked them in the face.
It's not about money (my wage is shockingly low anyway) but I want to go home everyday and feel like I've made a difference and achieved something. Big decisions need to be made in the new year.

Royal baby

So today was the day we all found out Wills & Kate are expecting.

I'm all for the Royal family and thought it was fantastic news.

Listening to the news reports it made me think of my own two pregnancies. Both very different although only 16 months apart.

and.... Relax

You got to love a bargain!! Thanks to my lovely cousin and a well known discount website, I spent the afternoon in the Spa. This fantastic trip cost me £6... Yes £6!!

From swimming to floating the hydro pool, I thoroughly enjoyed the R&R. Eight of us made the trip to the local hotel, armed with our books swimming costume and commentary robes. Leaving our OH's to babysit we discussed the upcoming festive season and made plans to do it again soon.

I know I'm trying to pay our debts off sooner rather than later, but today is just what I needed. In fact I'd love to return by myself. Before I settled down, when I had my own flat I could go a full weekend without speaking to anyone. I often miss my own company... Time to potter around and do nothing much.

Well I'm back home and reality returns. Sunday night is spent ironing school uniforms, making packed lunches and 'bath night'.

Thinking back to when I was younger we had a bath on Sundays and Wednesday, the other days we had a strip wash. This tradition as now been past on to my children.

Right I'm off to chop my veg for the slow cooker.

Night xxx

A Change is gonna come.

It's coming to the end of the year, a time to reflect on the months before.
This year I am seriously thinking of returning to education and changing career.
Why? some people may ask. I know I'm in full time employment and I should be grateful in the current economical climate, but I'm not satisfied.
We spend half our live working, I want to feel like I've actually achieved something, made a difference, not just pay the bills.
I think if I don't make a decision soon, the opportunity may pass.

Decisions, decisions???